On Books and Ballroom Dancing

(I recently discovered an essay that I wrote at the end of 2020; since we are now finishing up 2025, this seems like a good time to share it with you . . . )

“A series circuit is a Voltage Divider. Two light bulbs on the same series circuit share the voltage of the battery: if the battery is 9V, then each bulb gets 4.5 volts.

A parallel circuit avoids this problem. Two bulbs in a simple parallel circuit each enjoy the full voltage of the battery. This is why the bulbs in the parallel circuit will be brighter than those in the series circuit.”

                                                — https://www.bu.edu/gk12/jeff/Unit/Lesson6.htm

As my semester of teaching during this Covid epidemic was wearily coming to a close, I came to the unwanted realization that I was spending way too much of my time and energy—the very essence of my existence—on too many mundane details.  Whether as a college instructor, home-owner, or fellow-manager of a duplex that my wife has owned for years, I felt as if my life had become a series of one practical task after another, each reducing the energy or enthusiasm that remained for the next one in line.

Fortunately, my brain is wired in such a way that I am continually pondering the right things to do, and the right ways to do them.  This creates a good system of tracks to run on.  It gets things done even when I have little interest or energy for the task at hand, which was an especially good thing this past semester when the presence of Covid forced all of us to adjust, and then re-adjust, how we did everything from getting groceries to interacting via Zoom for online chats, meetings, and classes. And we did it!  We adjusted, and found ways to be productive.  We found ways to get through. 

But something was missing.  As my church celebrated the weeks of Advent leading up to Christmas, I realized that I wasn’t feeling “joy,” that sense of simple contentment and happiness.  So, I asked myself the question that I have returned to many times through the years: “What makes me happy?”  If I ignore those voices in my head that keep reminding me of what I “should” be doing with my time, and if I block out what modern culture tries to sell me on, what would I include on my list of sure-fire ways to make myself happy?

As I began my “happy list,” I looked back over the years and remembered what seemed perfectly normal to me as a seventeen-year-old (and which I realize now reveals what a nerd I was in high school): I had joined the “Book of the Month” club and enjoyed reading what a panel of experts had voted each month as the best new writing that was out there.  And the books really were great. To this day, I easily re-experience reading Kramer vs. Kramer, The World According to Garp, and The Girl in a Swing.  At the time of my first reading, I felt sophisticated, and challenged, and happy while reading those monthly selections. 

So the first thing I decided to do to get my life back on a happy track was to re-join The Book of the Month Club.  My first (and only selection so far) is The Star-Crossed Sisters of Tuscany, about an elderly aunt who takes her two grand-nieces across Italy with the goal of breaking a centuries-long curse that has kept the second-born daughters in the family from finding and marrying the one true love of their lives.  It is not great literature, but it is a good story.  Perhaps the quality of the writing doesn’t matter all that much because I am content when I settle into my upholstered chair and enjoy doing something that has absolutely no practical benefit other than making me happy.

A former version of my happy-list included not only reading, but also running, music, and movies.  Another activity would soon follow shortly after I entered college as a non-traditional student.  My first semester there—the second class I signed up for—was a ballroom dance class.  I had wanted to learn how to swing dance ever since American Graffiti was on the big screen and high schools held sock hops in never-been-there nostalgic fashion to revisit the 1950s.   Ballroom dancing was added to my happy-list, and never left.  Later, there was graduate school, then an offer to get paid to teach other people how to Swing and Lindy-Hop and Ballroom dance, and now a long-playing Recreation Department gig teaching ballroom dancing where I now live. 

In some ways, ballroom dancing is merely an escape from all of those mundane tasks that we as adults have to do simply because they need to be done.  But ballroom dancing is more than that: it’s being happy, happy listening to great music, of learning some dance steps, of moving to that music using those dance steps, of being around interesting and nice people.  It is also the magical transformation of your psyche that comes about on the dance floor, regardless of whether the day you just had was awful, mundane, or actually pretty good.  

It’s the start of a new year; what’s included on your happy-list?  

On Reading Middlemarch

Two-and-a-half years after starting it, I finally finished reading Middlemarch, the mammoth novel by George Eliot (pen name of Mary Ann Evans, 1819-1880). It sat on my dresser for most of that duration, sometimes undisturbed for a month or two even though it was always readily available, until the challenge—or the guilt—of finishing a “classic” finally pushed me back to “pick it up and read” (the same conviction that Augustine silently heard before his conversion experience as he describes it in his Confessions).  As I returned to the book, the quip by Mark Twain more than once swirled around my brain: “A classic is something that everybody wants to have read and nobody wants to read.”

I began reading Middlemarch as my “I’ll read this while traveling” book when I was finally able to visit Paris for the first time in May 2023.  Note to myself (and you): don’t lug around a 650-page book when you travel!  Instead, select one around 200 pages. (The Great Gatsby comes in at about 188 pages.  Perfect.) To those of you who read books on Kindl or whatever digital machine you prefer, I cannot relate.  I need the feel of material reality when I read, the feel of paper and the smell of a book (even the musty ones—maybe especially the musty ones). 

Perhaps what I like best, though, is the control I have with a book with paper pages versus one that boasts of its “digitality.”  When I read, I thumb my nose at the social expectation to be accessible 24/7.  I give myself the luxury of reading slowly, thinking deeply, and making connections mentally.  O.K., I confess that I also need to turn off the volume on my I-phone and stick it in my dresser amongst my socks so I cannot hear the buzzing when a text is sent to me, because my willpower is only as strong as the absence of my temptations.  

Augustine asserted that we mere mortals are no match for temptation—he listed avarice, ambition, and lust as the big three—and writers during the Enlightenment, even with its celebration of the rational, knew that our logic and our willpower could not overcome temptation.  We need a hedge, we need a double hedge, to avoid being controlled by our impulses and vices, which is why the Founding Fathers, those celebrators of Enlightenment thinking, admitted the inadequacies of the rational mind when they created a Constitution for these United States that incorporated a system of checks and balances. Our system of government was never meant to do things quickly; it was meant to do things deliberately, cooperatively, and well.

Some people praise Middlemarch as the best novel ever written in the English language.  I don’t. The plot takes so terribly long to unfold, and when it does it doesn’t startle or pull you in.  (Although, to be fair, perhaps it had more of a pull in the 1870s when it was first published.)

I do, however, feel that it is a worthwhile read: it is impressive how the author created an entire English village with a large cast of memorable characters, spanning the breadth of social classes as well as human virtues and vices.  Two characters, Edward Casaubon, the sour clergyman and inept scholar, and his much-younger, kind-yet-naïve wife, Dorothea, are two such examples. 

Why did I keep plugging away at the book, though? I think it came down to the physical challenge of deciphering the extremely dense and archaic writing style (double negatives abound), along with the intellectual joy of eventually comprehending the subtle sociological and psychological insights that Eliot/Evans reveals, as exemplified here:

“But indefinite visions of ambition are weak against the ease of doing what is habitual or beguilingly agreeable; and we all know the difficulty of carrying out a resolve when we secretly long that it may turn out to be unnecessary.”

We long to do yet are relieved not to have to.  Truer words were never spoken regarding the actions of a writer when faced with the task of writing, of needing to get thoughts down on paper, yet finding ways to justify the necessity of spending one’s time and energy doing almost anything else.  Jesus himself informs us that “the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak” (Matthew 26:41 ESV).

I also kept reading because the writer’s thoughts are, at times, incredibly uplifting, especially when describing the kindness of Dorothea and her desire to help make the world a little better place, whether through patient words spoken during tense conversations or by means of a plan to build affordable housing for the poor. At the conclusion of the novel, the narrator has this to say about Dorothea while providing encouragement for those reading the book to fight the good fight:

Certainly, those determining acts of her life were not ideally beautiful. They were the mixed results of a young and noble impulse struggling amidst the conditions of an imperfect social state, in which great feelings will often take the aspect of error, and great faith the aspect of illusion . . . Her finely-touched spirit had still its fine issues, though they were not widely visible . . . But the effect of her being on those around her was incalculably diffusive: for the growing good of the world is partly dependent on unhistoric acts; and that things are not so ill with you and me as they might have been, is half owing to the number who lived faithfully a hidden life, and rest in unvisited tombs.

In this way, Middlemarch did for me, the reader, what a daily reading of the Bible does: it reminds us that virtue is still a good in itself even when it seems overpowered by those who are “vicious” (as in its original meaning of “being filled with vices”), that God is still in control even when we do not have eyes to see Him, and that there are still people out there who trust that compassion is still superior to money, power, selfishness, and greed.  

On the Beauty of Mathematics

There is a National Museum of Mathematics (MoMath) where Mark Hamill, famous for playing Luke Skywalker in the Star Wars franchise of blockbuster films, visited—along with his bodyguard and Sarah Larson, a staff writer for The New Yorker, which led to my reading all about it when my latest (old-fashioned, paper, snail-mail-delivered) edition arrived today, four days before its publication date of June 30, 2025. 

The executive director of MoMath is Cindy Lawrence, who informs visitors of the museum something that anyone who has ever been hooked on math already knows: “that math can be beautiful.” This notion was demonstrated visually in the movie, A Beautiful Mind, starring Russell Crowe (2001), a film depicting the life of Nobel Prize-winning mathematician, John Nash.  As he works through his equations, Nash sees a deluge of numbers appearing from above, then suddenly patterns form.

Math is beautiful when you see those patterns emerging, whether in Arithmetic, Geometry, Algebra, Calculus, or the other higher-order branches of mathematics that I never got to.  The answers to all those equations and functions are simply beautiful patterns, floating down to settle into their perfectly assigned slots. 

Not only is math beautiful, but it can also be spiritual.  Pythagoras—whose name is attached to the famous theorem showing the relationship between the sides and the diagonal in a right triangle—is also known for founding a religious brotherhood in the 400s B.C. that connected mathematics to spiritual enlightenment, a numbers-based approach to discovering the harmonies of the universe.

This notion of mathematics as spiritual experience is presented in another modern biographical movie about a mathematician: the film is The Man Who Knew Infinity (2015) and the mathematician is the brilliant Srinivasa Ramanujan (1887-1920), “who believed numbers and their relationships were not human constructs but divine revelations, offering insights into the universe’s mysteries” (Britannica online).

The idea that mathematics is both beautiful and spiritual is not surprising given what the Bible declares about the beauty and harmony of a universe that declares—that reveals—the power and awesomeness of its creator:

19 The heavens declare the glory of God,
               and the sky above proclaims his handiwork. (Psalm 19:1)

An example of this natural beauty is contained in the very first page of the Old Testament with the description of God’s creation of the universe:

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.

And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. And God saw that the light was good. And God separated the light from the darkness. God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And there was evening and there was morning, the first day. (Genesis 1:1-4)

And there you have it: the invention of whole numbers, the counters.  Just as the light is distinct from the dark, so is the first day distinct from the second, and third, and all the other integers all the way up to wherever we are on the axis to eternity.

It is this beauty and harmony of the universe that mathematics helps us to understand.  Through the study of the world around us, we discover underlying God-given structures at work, structures expressed by the terms and figures in mathematics; sometimes, though, discoveries in mathematics open our eyes to previously unrealized structures in the world around us.

Mathematics is beautiful because it reflects and describes the beauty and order inherent in a universe created by a beautiful and orderly God. 

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In this blog, I offer my thoughts and reflections on Bible passages, Christian doctrines, and the world around us—both present and past. Sometimes the posts will be casual and informal and sometimes they will get a little more “wonky” or academic as I apply my background in Biblical Studies and the Humanities to the topic at hand. Always, though, like a musical line floating above the main melody, there will be my Christian worldview. Sometimes, its presence will be obvious, while at other times its presence will be subtle, simply hovering above the conversation.

Grace and Peace,

Mike

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This is my soon-to-be-developed blog, where I will offer my thoughts and reflections on Bible passages, Christian doctrines, and the world around me–both present and past. Sometimes the posts will be casual and informal and sometimes they will get a little more “wonky” or “academic” as I apply my background in Biblical Studies and the Humanities to the topic at hand. Always, though, like a musical line floating above the main melody, there will be my Christian worldview. Sometimes, its presence will be obvious, while at other times its presence will be subtle, simply hovering above the conversation.

Grace and Peace,

Mike